She goes

If you want to enjoy the rainbow, be prepared to endure the storm. -Warren Wiersbe

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Ytd was packing day.


Collected the boobs i booked online at t1. Came home and do some cleaning at packing cos school is starting. (sigh)
Look below. Yeah, those are the boobs i intend to say bye cos i don't need it liao(~~~~)
Ah, you wouldn't know how tired it is to pack
those things. Esp those heavy boobs lor. Napped after I packed everything. Suddenly felt so tired, lol.

My Tutor's sweet. LOL.

Poor burger being squashed.


Random shot.

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And for TODAY,

Received a letter from my cute girlfriend, Yun Tung; wishing me Merry X'mas. Hah, no wonder she ask me what's my house address that time lah. Lol.

I'm gonna write back.

Oh yea, my Father knew that my camera is spoilt. Disappointed? Angry? Duh. Oh but wait, he wasn't angry. He just shook his head & say, "So you see, everytime I buy things for you, you spoil." and walk away. I was upset. Like fucking sad lor. Imagine if your parents say that to you. Ah. I still want my new camera... Even if i never drop it on the floor, spoil it, it's old already. Must change. And plus i've been bearing the mega pixels for a long time. I've been bearing every flaws (a lot) the camera have.. and i've been using for quite some time. I want a better one..

My Mum alr promised she'll buy for me. But idk if her decision will still remain after I've spoil this lan one. Gah, life sucks sometimes esp for me these days.. So moody. I need some air.

Gonna study after i've publish this post. Hah, finally lor Esther. And then I'll watch tv i think. Not much programmes to watch at this time. Maybe at night i shall watch.

:O :0

Edited@7.31pm

Wow lah. Had fried sliced fish mee fen and it's super nice!! (just that without the fish it's even nicer, lol) Intend to order another plate cos I wasn't very full but i controlled. HAHAHA. Wanna eat it again the next time. :D

FUCK I GOT SORE THROAT, really sucks..

:@

Im so disappointed with starhub connection, srsly disappointed. Despite so many many peepo said starhub has very poor connection, don't you ever have anyting gotta do with starhub, bcos it'll do you trouble, i still insist on using this service. Finally, yesterday @ 11.47pm, i lost faith in it. It goes like this...

Starhub is the cause of the internet connection problem. For some reasons, i can't login to msn. For some reasons, when i logged in to fb, it logout for nothing. FOR SOME REASONS, the telephone is affected also. Irriating lots? :@
Last night, i was blogging. And I clicked 'publish post' and it appeared 'Internet cannot display webpage'. Idiot? -_____- Waste my time blogging. And efforts bcos it was a long post. Lol? :@

Anyway. Ytd sucks, so unlucky. :@

1)I dropped my camera on the floor. (I dare not tell my Dad cos im a coward, i don't dare to bear the consequence)

2)I almost fall down bcos i sat on the chair for so long, my legs turned wobbly when i stood up.

3)Idk where the hell my msn is, I tried to re'download again but someth goes wrong wtf. I assumed is my Father who did someth to it or what (cos he always reset here & there) but he insists he didn't.

4)Father and Daughter relationship soured bcos of one idiot msn.

5)I always have a habit of copying and paste at microsoft after i blogged. But i can't find ytd's post anywhere here.

6)Bad sleep ytd. No, shud say I never even sleep at all cos I GOT FLU AGAIN. Wa'sup with flu man. I alr stopped drinking cold water liaoooo right, what you want sia. Take my life if you want la, why let me suffer hell worst than hungry ghosts despo'ing for food. :@

Idiotic idiotic idiotic!!!! I'm so pissed. I'm really pissed. I'm so angry!! yet i still blog. You can sense my loyalty towards blog. IT'S SO FRUSTRATING. Ahhh, i feel like killing and stabbing.

Chill chill chill. I must control my temper. I must. I'm a human, im civilised, i must control my temper. I must not do anything silly just bcos im frustrated. I'm not a beast.

(This chio Villa, omg. I wish I owned it)

Phew.

Slightly better now. I was so angry just now thinking abt ytd's unlucky 'activities'...

The thing that really pissed me off today was i couldn't find the post i copied & paste ytd at microsoft! adding on to ytd's stuffs... you can imagine how irritated can I be. Plus my Father don't even wanna help me. :@ (Irritation adds on....)

Hell I saw a lot of this :@ emotion. Hmph. You obviously can infer I'm angry. LOL if you want.

Argh........ WHERE THE HELL IS MY MSN FUCKER.

Last,

:@

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Today. Visited my paternal Grandma+Grandpa. Very awesome lunch cooked by Grandma's maid. Ofcos Grandma is her mentor if not there's no way she can cook so so so so so+so well. I'm proud of my Grandma lor.

Passed the present i bought for my Aunt in Thailand. She was so happy! She happy, i happy, everybody happy. Sounds cute. LOL if you want again. (lol)

Came home, use lappy. Blogged. to express, to let out my anger but it doesn't seems to appease me. There is still fire in me. I feel like boxing a scapegoat........... lolz funny.

Wth, going cs to eat later Mum said. Making me angry again..

hey, seems like im counting the things that is pissing me. Urgh, i shouldn't do that cos this makes myself even ANGRIER. Wa'sup with me, keep counting things i shouldn't be couting. I shud count happiness!! unfortunetely for today..... nothing much makes me very happy. Sad enough?

That's all for today. Hope tmr will not disappoint me. Hope after i click 'publish post', nothing goes wrong. Ytd everyth was wrong. So so so so+SO wrong.

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Hais....

Quiz by Kai Xiong. Gah, i can't copy & paste.. Fine. I shall type word by word cos it's a short quiz, & to prove that I'm not a lazybum! tehee.

Kkk. Here goes the quiz..

1)What do you like more, Silence or Noisy atmostphere?

-Depends. When i'm unhappy, i prefer to be alone. Thus, I will prefer peace. When I'm happy and hyper, I prefer a noisy atmost. Hmmm but hor, if you ask me now, i prefer silence yeah thanks. Lolz.

2)Do you like to sleep?

-Depends. When i've done someth really wrong, i wanna sleep so i can accept reality. When reality is sooooooo nice, I don't wana go into sleep.

3)Are you rich?

-Definitely not. I'm in the average kind; close to poor can.

4)Are you high-headed?

-Obviously not. I don't have anything to be high headed abt. I wish i could be. LOLS.

5)Do you find yourself femine (as a boy) or manly (as a girl)?

-Yeah. Sometimes i will be like... why am I so man? (as in my arms are so big) lolz.

6)Have I ever been very sad or happy?

-I'm a human. Hope i answered the question.

7)Where to you derive inspiration from -to please a lover?

-Aiya.. this type of thing need inspiration de meh. If you're in love with mo mo person, you'll do anything to please him/her right. Ok if you really need inspiration, get it frm your friends who got a lover. AHHHHHH.

I will pass this to...

-Aliens

I'm despo-ing for kimchi right now... Kimchi is quite easy to make. Hahaha, i tried making it while i was in Korea. The tour guide didn't had a hard time teaching me, gah thank god.


I'm missing kimchi.. Based on the feedbacks the tourguide told me when I was in Korea, he said foreigners don't really like kimchi bcos of it's pungent smell. But that's not the case for me. ;)
Ok i admit the smell isn't very pleasant. But aiya... we cannot everything also use sense of smell. We also must make use of our sense of taste! We, must have the guts to try out things. Sorry errr hmm, im not saying im a person who have a lot of guts... i've got this little bit of guts only for trying out food, wahaha. And that totally explains why am I so fat, unabling to be on diet.


I'm losing my appetite... but if you give me kimchi, i'll gobble it up. Hehe!

I've been longing to sleep early at night. Unfortunetely, i can't. I wish I could. I don't wanna be an owl. Not i don't want, but look, this is not a human lifestyle. So, i shud accept the fact that i'm a human, i've to sleep at night. Hell, i got this thing call insomnia. I tried lying on the bed at 11. But i rolled around the bed till 1plus. Damn, here am I trying to into lalaland but it rejects me bcos many unfigured out things whirling around my mind. Guys, you won't know how irritating it is to wanna get to sleep and you can't.


Hey i know you guys sleep really late at night, spending time watching tv, using internet, at starbucks drinking iced cappuccino or whatever espresso shit. I would love to enjoy this kinda life too but im afraid my body can't take it. And, most imptly, my face. Once I sleep late, pimples will start popping out as quick as you imagined. Ridiculous? but true. There are many things if we guys can't do it, means we can't.


I really admire friends who could sleep really late without any negative impacts happening. It may be nothing to you, but it's 100percent amazing to me.



Ughh.. life has not been very interesting these few days but i just lead it as it is. Sad enough?
She has not been contacting me, it's her fault. Serious, i don't like to go out with friends i don't feel any secure with, or friends I sense who would betray me or even, for nothing borrow money from me. I'm not a very wealthy person who would feel secure after you've said "I'll return you the money."

So save the jioing out if i dont like you.



(-__-): And wassup with mixpod. I can't changed my songs.

Perhaps each day seems alike.. gray and grim. You are irritated by little things, you drag yourself to do one task to another. You aren't really sick but you're far from feeling well..


I've not been using MSN for several days.. feel kinda uneasy though. My Father is settling this matter. SEE, handling technical problems sucks. We also don't know where went wrong. It can be the network, the unplugged wires, the virus, or whatever hackers.. gah.


Luckily I'm able to use facebook. Hah, fb is getting really fun nowadays. Perhaps due to my friends. Fb can be uber boring at times when nobody entertain u or when you use it too much until sian. I'll not use fb so often in order for me, slowly not to have a bad impression for it. :)


Anyway. I can sense this very sensational christmas atmostphere even though i'm at home. Wooo, feel so great sensing that X'mas is around the corner. Oh wait, or isit over already? Oops, im being like a real sotong now! I mean.. yeah im a "sotong" but now im really being like a "REAL SOTONG"... Hey i dont even know when is x'mas actually!! Disgrace. I didn't really bother cos always, when x'mas is round the corner... i can feel it! Like duh, even the fb's games offered x'mas treats... the tv oso will advertise some things. LOL.



This year x'mas wouldn't be so fun i reckon bcos last year was too fun; cannot be compared to any other years.. Really, last year was memorable.. my mind entered the imaginary studio.. and it's that kindof awesome countdown that made the atmostphere tensed up, love it. (Y)


OHYE, i found this para that caught my attention...


"A good tip for making your own affirmations is to avoid the negative worlds like no, not, don't, haven't, etc. Put the sentance into positive terms. Your mind hears a negative affirmation if you use negative terms, even if you meant it to be a positive statement. You are creating for yourself an affirmation to use like a mantra. Put it in terms that make you feel good emotionally."


HAHA. SLEEPING SOON. Can't stay up late tonight cos my Mum complained to my Dad that i've been staying up really late these few nights. (ZZZZZZZ)

I feel like i getting to not look like a Singaporean, and i really... like it baby.

Actually, I intended not to blog today. But after listening to the Thai songs (now still), gets me really in a blogging mood. Hell so nice lah the Thai love songs! Am gonna listen to it when i study, when i sleep, when i idle, when i bath!! Exaggerating loads?



Well. I'm srsly in a overseas mood still. I'm wondering what will I be doing if I'm in Thailand now.. Hah, cfm shopping de! Don't yknow, there are a lot of things to shop there? with cheap price. Overseas life is awesome. Coming back here.. really bores me. Nothing to explore, and i'm reminded of those bad memories when im back. Hah, i may think of emigrating when i'm financially stable, tgt with my family. They also want! Haha.. thinking of where to emigrate to.

USA? Big country, not very safe... sighs, all these are the factors i've to consider. So irrtating... Urgh, i think better to stay here la. Though a lot of bad memos, but hor, we hor, must learn to hor, let go mah; cannot always live in the past like you people always say right? Okok, shall follow.

Crapz, i haven't started watching my recorded episodes yet.. too busy. Not busy with facebooking ofcoz, but other stuffs. Example, studies. Haha kidding!! Studies will be the last I will ever get busy with. Lol, k im actually not very busy la. Cos yknow, i wake up very late. So half of my day is all about sleeping. The rest will be about dressing up myself... and go out.

Today, I went out with Aunty Angie. It's been a long time i met her lo! I paid for her movie (2012) ticket. And this is the very cute first time i felt so not heartbroken paying for other people's benefits lo! Good?? I mean.. i don't mind treating or paying for others, but i only will feel a bit 心痛 nia but ya, i really dont mind so much cos you happy, i happy. Ever heard of this? Hahaha. I think feeling 心痛 is normal la, this is human's nature. Yeah man! Lolz..


(FUCK, I JUST REALISED THAT HEARTBROKEN & 心痛 IS THE SAME MEANING LOLZ)

Awww, my ears are so itchy. I think someone is thinking of me. Ha, "Esther so buey hiao baiiiiii."

So? I like to. Your problem? Not right? So shut. Haaaaaa. Am getting sleepy... im gonna change to my cutez pyjamas and sleep like a pig!! Yay! Sweet dreams to 我...

Lala, wait me!

Back to spore. AM SO LAZY TO POST ALL THE PICS ON BLOG. All on facebook.




I've learnt a lot of things those few days. I dono how to describe. But it's just that little experience that made me a much grown up person. Stayed in a village the first day. Villagers lead a simple life there, they do not expect a lot of satisfication, do not fret over money issues. Their lives are purely just crops, veges, animals. Simple isn't it? Not like us, so complex..


The children there also no difference frm the adults. Yes, they do go to sch, duh. Students must go to school whether they're financially poor, rich, average bcos of.. parents decision.


After school, they'll come back, play among themselves. Even if it's just a land of grass, they also wouldn't mind. Just crawl or roll around the grass, they're happy. They, as villagers, do not have enough to wear, to spent, but they still live their life like that. Why? Cos they do not expect a world of luxury but a world of happiness. Money, will not be involved in 'happiness'.



The one night staying in the village is in my four days, most enjoyable day. I've learnt a lot, seen a lot, enjoyed a lot... =D



As for the rest of the 3days, stayed in Bangkok. Eat, sleep, play, shopping. Bought a lot of things there. Hell, Mum is a really a good bargainer lah! From 800 all the way to 350. Wa eh, 赚到了 sia..



I LOVE my hotel, full of romance atmostphere.

THE CHICKEN LAYED THE EGG INSIDE AND BUILT NEST. CUTE.

K, these are the few pics i've featured. LOL.

Now that i'm back... i'm gonna catch all the episodes i've missed those 4 days!! So exciting.

Conclusion: I really enjoyed.. very interesting trip. I love it when I shop a lot of my things!!

Will blog after I'm back from Thai; which is this Sat. Stomach pain, off to poo now! Byes.

:O

I don't like to wake up early. I don't like to pack luggage. I don't like to sit aeroplane (not really)

But i've to do all these TMRRRRRR.

WOOTS, Lotsa of episodes of shows awaiting for me when im back. HEEHEE

Yesterday's pixy: Dinner @ airport (Fish and Co restaurant)

My Father's swordfish's collar!! I like the sauce only.. the fish.. eee. But my Father love it. LOL.
Love the veges only. Heehee~

Isn't the little flag cute? America's flag. As for why is it there.. i suppose gotta do with the company's background..

Grandma wants to be in the picture! She wanna give me her salmon cos she doesn't like salmons. She said Salmons Tastes FISHY. So I cut half of my fish and chips and give her in exchange for the little salmon. I personally don't really like salmon but i still exchange. See, filial. Hahaha, tell me it's funny.

Closer view of my fish and chips. Wooo, nice leh. Fish and Company's (fish and chips) are nice! Their speciality is the fish and chips. But I don't really like the idea of them putting cheese into the fish.. i prefer ONLY the fish itself. :) The original flavour!

TODAY:

Woke up early. As usual, tuition. I realise I learn a lot of things each time I have tuition!! Isn't that great? I'm getting smarter and knowledgeable each day. Unfortunetely, this cannot determine whether my knowledge has expanded bcos exam haven't come... or tests.. Only if I score well in this 2, then i can prove prove prove. Hah. ;O

Ohyeah, im being forced to go Thailand with my parents and Bro. Sigh, i don't like to go there. I want USA. Or Japan. Haha, far much demanding? Hmph, I've gone to Thailand a lot of times and serious, i can't stand the weather! Really very hot.. hotter than here. T-T

As yknow, i can't stand HOT. So what for torture myself in going a even hotter country? Mum said we'll be going there for blessing. Whole journey will be abt temples and temples, and just temples. Boring. AH nvm, change my luck!

2010, huaaaat ar!


2009 sucks. Shit year for me.

Chatting on the phone with Yun Tung now. My shoulders are pain man, talking on the phone and typing... So,

byebye!

Doesn't matter how you look at me cos it doesn't bother me. Why don't you do a reflection of how you look at people? oh, take it as i plead with you, boost up your maturity leh. Very kaopei sia you.

As I said at november 26th's post, i'll blog when I find sparkles in life. Hahaha, yeah I think i've found some. Lol.

Last night, went with my Mum to this concert. A super nice concert. Just 2 tickets costs 2k. Wow thousand plus, exp right? But the money will be donated to the charity. So worth it? Yeah of course. Can get to do some good deeds, at the same time, ENJOY. Why not? Indeed, last night was an unforgettable night. Hey David tao also perform at the concert leh! David Tao you know who? Famous Taiwan Singer. The guy who sang '月亮代表我的心'. Hm, he's not the orginal singer. He actually changed some parts of it. Which is, in my opinion, better than the original song. Love his singing, love the way he carry himself. Oh dont mistunderstand, im not a real fan of him. Haha, well i'm not a fan of anybody. Isit good? WELL.


Scroll down and it's David Tao singing. Sorry, pics not in order. :p


The most interesting 节目 in the whole thing is the thousand hands!! Wooo, so entertaining! I watch until I open my mouth also didn't realise lor! Snapshots a little. The ticket states 'no photography, no video.' But i still photo it! Why? Cos I saw many ppl also took photos, some even so daring, took video.. The big deal is, even the policemen infront also don't care lor! Wow, police doing their jobs.. *grins


Credit:



Fucker i wish i was sitting in the middle of the stage lor! Because only in the middle, you can see everything. This is only one side of the view.. Not as nice as when u witness the whole opening of hands (in the centre view) :'( Mum still say "Hey, we got the premier (VIP) seat.." Haha, VIP? I can't even have a good view! -____-








Nah nah nah nah, here's the handsome David Tao!

Couldn't see clearly hor? Ah, cos this stupid camera. The background shouldn't be so dark de lo!

Yknow, the people who performed this 'thousand hands' are ppl who have 缺陷 eh. In case you're unaware what 缺陷 means... i shall explain. It means, 'disability'. They're ppl who are deaf and mute. This orginal group of ppl who performed this popular 'thousand hands' at 52countries has now come, to S'pore... to perform us.. to tell us... to help them. :) See, they're dead+mute, yet they can come up with such beautiful performance.. Hey, it's not easy leh. How to even... communicate man?

I cannot imagine myself living in a world of quietness. There's no music, no voices, no sounds at all. How to live man? Ha, they're so awesome. Not only did they didn't give up in life, they still find hopes and goals. Not to say us, normal people. We've got everything, no disability. Should we also find this 'no giving up, pursue your dreams' spirit? We should! Why? Cos we're normal. We're perfect physically! Lol lol, maybe not perfect. But at least, we have all the basics in human. HOR HOR HOR? :D

Alright. I shall stop nagging.

Ohyeah, i needa harvest my crops in farmville liao! Then I shall off the lappie, wash my face, comb my hair and get rdy to go out liao. Didn't really celebrate my birthday in Malaysia so Mum suggested to have another celebration. Heehee. :p

Shall upload pixyy tmr! Woo, life so cutez!!

Losing, and changing.

Life has been too so-so for me till I dread blogging.. OK, slightly better today.

Had a date with Germaine today. Met at t1 to eat u-mian. okok lah. But it's a big bowl! I thought i couldn't eat finish but surprisingly, i finished the mian excluding the meatballs, those funny funny things. Old Esther definitely won't finish up a bowl of so-so noodles. Isn't that a kind of accomplishment? I'll still improve. Try lah. After eating, Germaine came my house. Bitched around, crap, joked. Somehow, fucking boredom just drop by when we're at loss for conversations and games. Nvm, got me... boring won't last! Hah.


Evening: Chatted online. Now still...

Am going to turn in soon.. Will blog when i find sparks in life. Funny much? -___-